New Year Eve in Advance

30.12.11
Today, i went to Likas Plaza at Dr.Rashid dental clinic..to accompany my sister.
i forgot what time we arrived there.. but earlier than 5pm which the nurse supposed my sister will received her service. but we had waited until later than 6pm. and there was a woman who was so angry because she had her appointment at 4.30, but she had not been served until 6pm.. she called up her friend and complaint her frustration to them which was very annoying.. i remember my dad even voiced out his dissatisfaction to me then he left, and went outside the clinic.

After that, we went to Upperstar in Suria and had dinner.. a very big dinner and i ate a lot too.. i am very concerned with my apetite.. but i just do not have the strong will to control it.. huhu... but, i will just take it easy.. soon, i will be in hunger- when i am in campus..

on our way back home, salena's like a love song is on air, so we sang it together... very happily, very enjoying ourselves after dinner.. and we laugh a lot too especially me.. the funny thing is, when we were about to arrived home, the same song was played in the radio and we sang it like it was the first time.. seems like
Salena's song is very welcome in my family.. hehe..

i could not spend time with my syg tonight because he did not come.. i'm sad but i'll be fine.. i know. anyway, we are going to meet tomorrow for a photo-shoot session.. so.. i better get my beauty sleep... that's all for today..

I hate people who smokes!

reasons why?!
1. because i am disturbed by the smoke. i do not like the smell, it's filthy and not healthy.
2. smoking is a waste of money. Government have started their effort to tackle smoking problems because of it's effects on health. taxes have been increased for the sake of reducing the number of people who smokes however people still refuse to stop smoking instead willing to spend more money.
3. people who smoke is irresponsible, the above statements clearly explains why. they do not think of other people feelings and health. they willing to spend money to buy smoke rather than to spend it for other more important things.

the sad fact is my own family members smoke..! and my health if in danger because of their smokes! i don't know what is so great about smoking that they think they will die for not smoking which is very RIDICULOUS and IRONIC! smoking will only get you closer to death!

Happy birthday to me!!

i'm writing this because i feel like writing and wanted to share it!

oh yeah! today is my birthday! :) 

my darling gave me a huge bear. i received it earlier, as i had to leave kk before my birthday.. the "giving ceremony" was so funny!

we were in the car, before heading to the bus terminal for me to leave to Keningau. he initially gave me a small free gift- something like an appreciation gift from 1borneo. 

the first gift!

the real thang!

frankly, i was a bit sad on that very moment.. because i was hoping for a better gift from him. not just a free gift you get after u bought something.  after all,  it's a gift from him, so i should be happy, appreciate it and take it with OPEN HEART. and lately, he keep telling me he has been dried out, and can't afford to buy me exclusive present.
ok.. fine with me..
but he laughed non-stop and I sense something is not right. the laugh was weird and it was the first time i saw him laugh earnestly- (the right word?)  and it really amused me, giggled me,
 his laugh tickling me. action for my response,  i joined him and we laughed together.. we laughed for some time, and i have no idea why i laughed... BUT! he certainly know why..

after a while, he went to the back, car bonnet. and pulled out a huge black plastic bag. it was really huge! SOOOOOOO HUGE! seriously!
then i suggested, it was my Other present huh???
he told me then, the exact present is the one he was handed to me that moment and the first one was just an opening to see my response. 

limited edition!! :p

He laughed so hard because of my my unhappy expression as soon as i received the first gift. (is it really obvious? haha! :D)  i feel like pranked but  he made me laugh.. :) thank you, syg.. :)

Perfect me?

i'm writing this because i am frustrated.

in primary school, i was an average student. but that time, this doesn't bother me anyhow. then, in secondary school, i had a feeling, i was a jewel in school. i was the best student, i was very active in sports and co-curriculum.  teachers liked me, my friends were proud of me.( i assumed) i was good.

my teenager was good, and i used to be praised. and i was very positive in everything i did. i even believed i can do anything. yes, i might sound arrogant, but please.. understand this feeling. people around you are so positive about you. even the time you were so down and not confident, they tend to believe that you are very good. i guess i was so absorb to this feeling that i couldn't face the fact now, in my tertiary education, i am very bad!

i am now not the best student like i used to be. worse, i am among the bad. :(
we had our first exam, MOCK EXAM.. most of the acquaintances said, this is supposed to be an easy exam. but my result do not reflect so. 


i don't consider myself as a good English student, but neither the bad. i am average, but to be an educator, i must be an expert to this subject so i can teach. how can i teach if i am not good as well. right?

i am very frustrated now, at the same time, i am oppressed.

BUT!!! i am positive, i don't quit easily. if this is what i pursue- an educator, i'll make sure i done it well!
FIGHTING!!

Shammey Tey, you are POSITIVE!! :)